cornerofmadness

why I have less energy now than when I was working. THis sucks. I'm in a very bad mood tonight so just take anything with a grain of salt and tell me to STFU if I'm out of order. Blame my hormones. Oh, last month whenI had to see the gynie the period came early. Now it's late by almost a week. It's probably plotting to ruin my vacation. But what it's ruining right now is my blood sugar. Last night it was so high I was beyond bitchy into the almost too lethargic to move stage (as in maybe the ER wouldn't be a bad idea except, oh right, they'll just give me more insulin. I can do that here). Today it's still well over 300 and that puts me in a frame of mind that isn't my own. I can't explain it. Sometimes, when i'm dealing with people and my sugar is this high the stuff coming out of my mouth stuns me with how mean it is.

So I've been dealing with that all day, getting weepy and upset over very little. THough sometimes, I think maybe it IS valid reasons to get a little irritated. I'm all for fighting for recognition and rights but when you start denigrating everyone who ISN'T in your subsection of whatever it is then aren't you just as prejudiced and mean as the people you percieve as holding you back (and the whole idea of having to match their meanness with your own doesn't hold much water with me).

I keep accomplishing nothing. I just want to lie around and do nothing and I know that's the depression talking. Sigh.

BTW I did find out today that the MRI on my shoulder wasn't last fall. it was in August. I've been dealing with this for nearly a year. I should probably have had this surgery over christmas. As suck ass as last Christmas was I'm glad I didn't.

My Space Pirate story will need to lose a few thousand words to be acceptible. slams head into desk.

And i'm over my broadband limit and am paying out the nose to be online right now and I don't even fucking care.

On a more happy note, sort of, flipping thru channels after NCIS tonight (still not ready to talk about it or castle) I saw Hines Ward drop his partner in practice wherein she got hurt pretty badly. I have some respect for him now as a human being, watching him not only cry at the time but cry after the dance because he was so worried about hurting her again and the concern he showed for her after the dance. She was the one trying to hold him together. Also, he is a very sexy dancer.

Also I DID get my prompts in for fma_ladyfest Who's gonna join me? yes yes, still thinking about fma_slashfest

( Day 203, trees )