cornerofmadness

No it really isn't. About the only thing that worked out today was getting the tomatoes and peppers transplanted. KK and I talked about what to do for the Steam camp. I think I know what I'm doing but if anyone knows a good steam project for 5th graders let me know. I'm still in the planning stages.

I then made a dumb choice, the Chinese buffet. I don't know why. I'm not a buffet fan and yes I ate too much but in spite of having NO rice there had to be a lot of cornstarch and/or sugar in things because it fucked my blood sugar hard. More about that in a bit.

While I was down there I crossed over to Point Pleasant because I wanted to see this house. I think it's an amazing house. However I left a little heart broken. It's on the main drag which means it would be noisy and frankly it took almost 15 minutes to go 3 miles because it goes through the heart of town. It would also mean going over train tracks (I had to wait on the train) and over 2 bridges to get to work. And the side street had some of the tiniest poorest homes I've seen in a while. Sigh. But look at this house! She's a gorgeous old home.

I want to drive out to this house all the doors are hung upside down (look at the upside down crosses) and I want that outhouse. I might have shared this before.

So I got home and crashed. It was literally like did I fall asleep in my chair or go unconscious for a little while with how high my sugar was? Sigh. I got nothing else accomplished. Starting to feel a little panicked at that.

I did however manage to boot up that old laptop of mine and got off photos and video but it couldn't get online and I still have no access to discord. You could smell it overheating. I'm going to give it one more try to get more stuff off it before I give it to IT for disposal. Hopefully it won't literally meltdown before that.

And yes this does mean that there's no promised meta this tuesday either.

Current Mood: stressed
Current Music: Summer Bake Off

All the little tiny peeper frogs are just singing it loud.

I'm not sure I mentioned that my aunt (technically one of mom's bffs) has been doing poorly. Finally (in spite of all of us trying to get her to go the doc) she finally did, mom had to go retrieve her from the ER which did jack. She fell as mom tried to help her into the house which in a way was a silver lining because now the hospital had to take her and actually do something.

Now she's in a home for PT which mom was helping research but they ended up putting her in a home that she didn't ask mom to look up and called screaming how horrible it was and why didn't mom warn her (and prejudice girl, her actual niece called to do the same and I'm like did you tell them both to fuck off. This isn't your responsibility?) Well today she's changed her mind and loves the home and her roommate (the one silver lining in covid, I had no roommates!) Honestly I've been saying for a while Aunt S2 needs to be not necessarily in assisted living but in a senior apartment complex. She would do SO well in that setting vs being in that big old home alone.

House hunting in my neck of the woods is hard but I found the perfect house....to set a horror movie. What is the worst part? Maybe the well of souls. My dad, being a sarcastic bastard, says I'll give you my leaf blower for the upstairs. It's the perfect house for you because you won't have to keep it clean. Side eyes him. See for yourself here.

And here we go again. Almost 80 today but it's falling fast. High tomorrow? Expected to be 40...

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: American Detective

I had all the energy this morning. Hit the gym. Hit Tractor Supply. Hit the coffee shop. Wrote an entire chapter of my Prodigal Son story. Came home a little late on lunch.

And in the middle of grading finals I felt awful. I have no idea why but my sugar was nearly 400. I mean I have my usual at the coffee house. Yeah I ate my hot dog late but my god, this was insane and then naturally I take insulin for it and it crashes so badly I had to eat sugar. So I still feel like crap.

I'm starting to see the holiday cards roll in. If you want one from me head here.

Oh speaking of those finals for the first time I had to curve them. That's because the online software doesn't allow me to off set the large point value of the final without downgrading the value of all the tests. (remember I lost the other grade book. it's back but I'm not spending the hours to recreate everything I lost)

And I literally cried a little looking at houses today.

a. one house at the edge of my range with just a unique and pretty inside but is WAY too close to a metal factory that fucking reeks

b. one house in the country like I want very close to work is above my range (but is probably going to come down) but it's very 60s with steps all over the place and every room has a rug (kitchen/bathroom too) that is wrinkled and stained and for 250K I do not want to have to strip every fucking rug out.

c. a nice ranch but in a town I really don't want to be stuck in.Sigh

Day 6 of tea
Adagio - black forest cake which is one of their newest ones that I had a sample of already. As you might guess it's a black tea chocolate cherry and yes this one is oh so tasty. It's chocolate without being that watered down hot chocolate thing and cherry without having that cough syrup taste. I love this one.

Yawn Brew - Cinnapple Green. Even more applie pieces (can we all just agree that this never tastes like apple but rather some weird tart taste) But the cinnamon was handled lightly and overall it was a nice green tea with a definite holiday vibe

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Holiday Bake Off

I met my friends E & D at Lake Alma park. It was a beautiful day in the mid-70s by 10 AM. We walked the little island in Lake Alma and my favorite tree that overhung the lake in a dramatic way was now IN the lake. Boo, you're a harsh mistress Nature.

And then we walked around the whole lake (about 2 miles). I've not done that before. It's mostly flat and was an easy enough walk. I would have liked a break or two though. I did it with some pain. They wanted to head home to watch college football which was okay with me. I wanted to go to the coffee house and write and to stop at the library to peek in at that petting zoo.

That was a bad idea. Kids everywhere. I mean way too many kids (that said I'm very glad it was well attended as it was meant for them, not me) I did pick up a couple mysteries and some manga about boys in dresses. Yeah I don't know but it's new so let me sample the weirdness for free.

The coffee house brought me pumpkin cheesecake and WAY less words than usual. I'm already doubting this nano. I think it will end up more a novella (because that's so marketable) I am rebelling anyhow. I will be counting some other stories into it. I'm going forward but I am wondering if having someone bed bound is too...boring? I mean it's not entirely unique thinking of Rear View Window but still... This is absolutely one I will need to have outside readers judging it as I won't be able to tell. I'm too close to it.

So my computer has NO files left on it but I did find out that might be because the old thing logged me in as a temp user instead of as me. I figured that out too close to dinner. I will piss with that tomorrow.

I found a house I liked in an area of Jackson I liked....and then noticed that the detached garage is a jillion idiot steps away UP/DOWN a hill. Yeah nope, like hell no. sigh.

still behind and sigh

8451 / 50000 words. 17% done!

SNIPPET- “Dani.”

At the sound of her mother’s voice, she cranked her head toward the door. Anne Restaneo didn’t look her age but she moved like it, especially now. She trudged in and flopped down in the reclining chair that took up residence under the TV. Dani thumbed the sound off.

“They had the doors nearest the parking garage they told me to park in closed for construction but no one bothered to tell me I’d have to walk all around the hospital to get in. There was a different parking garage next to the doors I had to go in. Why didn’t they just tell me that?” Anne said, breathing hard.

“No clue. Want my tea?” She lifted the paper mug. “It’s mostly still warm and decent enough for bagged tea.”

Mom shook her head. “I’m good. How are you? How bad does it look?”

“Do you really want to see? It’s not pretty.”

“I had two knee replacements.” Her mom waved her off. “I know what ugly knees look like.”

Current Mood: sore
Current Music: An Unexpected Killer

As I parked at work, a nice breeze popped up and the leaves of the maple trees just fell and swirled and it was like 65 degrees. It was a beautiful moment. Walking back to the car at the end of the day it was humid, 90+ and reminded me it wasn't fall yet.

I was very glad that today's faculty meeting was on zoom so I didn't lose my temper where others could see. I felt like I was being gas lighted and talked down too. Sigh. It's really done a number on my emotional state.

At least the nurses did better on test one (actually did pretty darned good overall) than my med/vet/PT wannabes. With them 7 took the test 2 passed (the same two who did the homework) Rolls eyes

the good news is my

spook_me story is taking off well. You've already seen my picture prompt. I'm using this house as my inspiration (and I want it desperately.

Speaking of houses this one came up and I'm attracted to the outside of it and having Possum Trot as my address. However is it me or are the dimensions inside weird and offputting?

My dreams of escape are still happening. Last night it was by wheelchair/walker which is all I remember of it. However I had another dream. I don't remember all of it either but I was seeing a podiatrist and he wanted me to try a new treatment and brought me into a room to a machine that looked like an x-ray machine with a cone on it (and you did have to wear a lead apron) and I was puzzled unsure how this could help. I didn't know what the machine was.

When they said it was going to take a long period of time for the treatment I said I don't have time for this. I have a psychiatric appointment coming out later that day. He asks me to see his partner before I leave. I agree. This guy starts doing a sensation test on my foot completely overreacting every time I failed to feel anything in my left foot. He swears he has the perfect (and quicker) treatment.

He comes back with a shiny panel of very flat silver metal. On it are symbols of Egyptian alchemy. I recognize Thoth and Hermes trismegistus plus a bunch of other symbols. He swears light from this panel will cure me and starts bouncing reflected light into my foot. He then starts drawing cards, tarot card plus action cards. One was for a reddish stone (garnet? ruby? Bloodstone?) that I had to get and destroy but I am not sure which it is. The other stone I had to destroy was amber. I needed to get amber chunks and burn them 'destroy the amber, destroy the errors of the natural world' was written on the card. I remember running out of there thinking wtf and ended up in some strange city which is where i woke up.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Doctor Blake Mysteries

Here's the new house they recced me I can just see me here on the porch watching grandma's moonshine recipe distilling away at the tree line while I play my banjo. I can get my hands on one too!

Of course that shack keeps looking better. Something has died under my place and there are so many turkey buzzards on my roof and it smells of decay in the living room/computer room (I think it's under the crawl space there or under my porch) It's not Rocket but he's decided this weekend he can't bear to be inside with me.

Also I am sure the pipes under my bathroom are leaking so I better clean up in there and call the landlord.

In better news, the ankle is doing better but man the finger doesn't feel good at all.

Current Mood: amused
Current Music: NCIS

I've been doing something on twitter 30 day pic thing of an idol and I've been balancing out the Prodigal Son's rabid fangirling of Tom Payne with a little Lou Diamond Phillips. I said if I had planned this better I would have finished on my upcoming birthday next week with an ask for Lou to friend me back as a birthday gift. Well he's been retweeting these posts and....

I swear he is such a sweet guy. Made my birthday right there.

Talked all morning about Mothman with a Pson friend (got me in the mood to write my It Came From the Trailer Park story)

The day went downhill from there. Nothing really bad happened. I got in a ton of writing (and posted that Buffyverse meta) but then I saw our gas went up 30 cents overnight. THis is horrible. What makes me angriest is a) I can't do a damn thing about it b) people THINK the president is responsible for pricing and we're already seeing the effects of this believe at the polls c) the GOP blocked anti price gouging measures (so they can make political hay of the pricing and I am sure if the GOP had suggested the measure the dems would have done the same because we no longer can work together on anything) This just put me in such an emotional tail spin.

I did go see an actual house in my price range. Dad said Dana I looked on GoogleEarth and you can hear the banjos. Yeah Dad that's true of this entire place but neither of us knew how bad this was. I was literally afraid. Ever get that Flight or FIght feeling, every nerve singing, your hind brain going RUN? Yeah that was this. I have seen countless rural poverty areas in my life especially here in Appalachia. This was the worst I've seen and I've seen people living in Amish-made sheds. Rusted out trailers, garbage piles higher than the trailers, dead cars three different sets of men fighting in the yard, the road wasn't as wide as my driveway. I did a three point turn in the middle of the road and gunned it the hell out of there. Yeah that's a nope.

spiffikins mentioned I've been house hunting a long time. Truth. Here's my issue, my student loans mean I can't afford what I really want. Also I can barely find what I really want. I don't want in town because the houses are SO close together (no lie, just looked at one where I could look at the room being shown off AND look straight into the neighbors and check their decor too) However out in the country 90% of what goes on sale (and isn't in a flood plain of which we have many) are doublewides. Here's my issue. Actually a lot of double wides are pretty nice (and with my health issues not a bad choice) BUT they do NOT age like a regular house. The stuff they're made of breaks down in just a few decades. All the ones I'm finding are 20+ years old so they're in the break down part of their life and they STILL want 180K+ for these things.

I don't get the house pricing here. It's WAY outside what people can afford. average salary here is under 30K. There is no one who can afford these places. Most people here can't even afford the rent on my apartment and I've put up with overcrowded neighbors where cops have to get called when it boils over. So what I'm looking for is outside the city but an actual house not a double wide. The search continues.

How about the reading meme?

What I Just Finished Reading:
Murder on the Mountain - a romance by a PoC Author for Popsugar (author is, characters are not the mystery/romance is forgettable)

Queen of Thieves: The True Story of "Marm" Mandelbaum and Her Gangs of New York by J. North Conway FINALLY FINISHED. It's not good, it feels like the first draft of someone's thesis.

What I am Currently Reading:

Light From Uncommon Stars by Ryka Aoki STILL omg why I am having such issues with this

What I Plan to Read Next:

Either something for popsugar (almost done) or an R or Z book to finish off the alphabet.

declutter day 8 what left :Two painted rocks Why kept: Gift from mom, Went with the Asian themed room Why left: They came from a yard sale and Changing the theme

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: On the Case with Paula Zahn

While I'm not in a rush I do look at Zillow and Realtor at least once a week. I have my towns to look in and my price range. Today I saw a house in Point Pleasant at the perfect size, lot, and distance from neighbors at a more than reasonable price. Naturally it's pending sale. I'm like WHERE was this house? The site says been there 65 days. No way. I couldn't have missed this one. Sigh.

I tried more of my haul from JJ. Freia's Firklover Melkesjokolade chocolate and hazelnut bar. It's good but not as nice as the Milka or the Aero candies and I realize what I really like about those two. They melt on the tongue like a Lindor truffle.

I wrote a story for

spikesgirl58's 6 word challenge
Title: Temper the Dark
author:

cornerofmadness
Summary: Ainsley doesn’t like the doubts that have crept into her mind.
Rating: teen
Notes: written for Spikesgirl58’s 6 words challenge (the six words were Tired, rung, dealer, redundancy, last, & fate) and for vanillafluffy in comment_fic for the prompt Prodigal Son, Ainsley Whitly, Young Lady, You're Scaring Me (Ron Gallo) and the allbingo untranslatable bingo prompt of Estrenar (Spanish): the first time you do or use something for the first time.

Find it on AO3 here.

Have some fandom recs. Quiet week

Prodigal Son
Observing

3x08 - The Machination virtual series

Other Fandoms

A Thermos-full 逆転裁判 | Gyakuten Saiban | Ace Attorney

Serving Up Justice...Or Something Like It Stargate Atlantis

Current Mood: disappointed
Current Music: The Unexpected Killer

My HGAIC was down to 7.5 which is the lowest it's been since I've become diabetic. I am happy. Finally some good news from the medicine side of things.

On the other hand, that near fall was a wee bit worse than I thought. My arm where I caught myself is bruised from wrist to elbow. And I went to pick the up the socks I had on yesterday and saw it was filled with blood that I somehow didn't notice yesterday. I tore off part of the nail. Yikes. And then I did the same damn thing today. That toe really hurts now but I didn't do more than stumble. The problem is my bathroom is NARROW and the high chair potty seat thing sticks out. I need to be more cautious.

I went to see the house by the graveyard. Let's leave it at the graveyard was the best part. WHat a shame. It is a nice brick ranch BUT all the neighbors are exceedingly poor and the unkempt run down Trump flag waving cars up on blocks type of poor. Hells no.

The art show is tomorrow. I'm pretty excited about it.

Current Mood: drained
Current Music: My Feet Are Killing Me

so my parents and I are still battling back and forth about me buying a house. Dad's right. Houses are WAY cheaper in Gallipolis for better homes but as my friend EB said she never felt safe living there and I feel the same when I'm there. They also don't grasp I don't want to live in town So they keep finding great places in the wrong places. That said this one IS tempting. ELD you'll want it. Here

It's no secret that I love the steampunk band Abney Park. They had one album come out around CHristmas but now they have a new one out that is covers of songs from 1900-1940. Here's one, an old John Mercer one Strip Poker. It's not safe for work. They used vintage burlesque dances in the video. It's pretty fascinating in its way.

"Strip Polka - Abney Park" (Watch on YouTube)

Mom sent me Shari's Berries for Valentine's Day and chocolate covered cherries too (though they're maraschino which are kinda gross to me) The strawberries are yummy though.

I did figure out how those stories got backdated on AO3. It wasn't me who put them there. The Mods of Angel Book of Days put them up.

ETA - I've been thinking about my lost stories and not backing them up. And I could have sworn that I backed up the lost stories. Well I've been typing in written kitten online just to motivate myself and I KNOW I saved my stuff last night to flash AND hard drive and 500 words were NOT saved (luckily they were still in the browser and I could get them again) so I'm thinking I DID save those stories but they just didn't get saved like last night. Glares at Word

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: The Magicians

I had to see the endocrinologist (who is now pretty much head of hospital and I now see his nurse practicioner more than him but once a year I need to see him). THe shitty new appointment system which put me with the wrong person in July put me with him in the WRONG Holzer today 30 miles in the other direction and NONE of their reminders mentioned hey you're seeing him in a clinic you've never seen him in before. Luckily he's like just come anyhow. But really he did jack shit. So...okay.

But it could be worse. I could be my friend from med school who had to have the sac around her heart cut away (except where the nerves that control the heart go thru) because it's turning into a constrictive shell that could kill her. I'm very worried (but she came thru the surgery well).

And in this episode of Hillbilly House Hunting we have the Dad assisted search (suddenly he wants me to have a house. God knows why). He doesn't seem to get I don't really want down by Gallipolis (the land feels wrong) BUT he is right in that the best houses are there.

So he found This perfectly acceptable one That's right next to the Piggly Wiggly (because of course it is) but also WAY too close to L's house. Which is not an acceptable to dad reason NOT to buy.

This is pretty and look doggie door On the outskirts on Gallipolis

We both found this one I actually like this one just not where it's located. Also it might be too far to get internet

And this one he sent jokingly He's right, this IS the one I'd much rather have. Now to scrounge up a cool half mil.

Also Kanda is romping. Run tubby run

And just as I was thinking what would have made a good fan vid, Darla/Angelus/Dru/Spike set to Voltaire's When You're Evil and I stumble across this Angelus one.

"When You're Evil - Angelus" (Watch on YouTube)

Current Mood: anxious
Current Music: Ghost Adventures

I should try to sell that as a concept to HGTV. I'm not even kidding. I can't figure out WHY houses here are so fucking expensive. No, I KNOW that compared to a lot of you, this is cheap as dirt but you have to understand Jackson has a population of @ 6400 people and average income of 26K and Wellston has about 1000 less people. Think about that, 26K and you can't touch a manufactured home for under 150K and most decent homes begin at 180K and really nice ones are over 200K (meanwhile back in Weirton WV my brother's split level in a nice neighborhood was at least 20K less). These houses are way out priced for rural Appalachia where the hillbillies are barely making enough to survive (Keeping in mind I make double the average salary and even for me the 800$ and up morgages would be a challenge)

So today I went to this one I want to be a country western bar which I think I've shared before. Why? Because if we're not going to fix anything here I DO have to move. No, the picture is NOT misleading. This thing has no windows, just those weird ass slits. It's only a mile past the foundry that makes this side of town unbreathable for me and just past the worst side of town. It's actually less gross where it is but around it are at least four or five sagging cabins and an equal number of 1970s trailers. I just kept on driving. (and no it's NOT up on a hill nor as country as this picture makes it look)

Those trailers? They're like this one And yes it's THAT Hatfield. (I've had both Hatfields and McCoys in my classroom) And check out that hillbilly 'sunroom' porch on this bad boy (nearly 70K? Are you HIGH?)

And the little cabins? NO WHERE near how cute this place is . I mean this one is kinda cute. Not what I want but if this place gets any shittier I might actually have my very own hillbilly cabin.

This place is tiny and made of barn siding. ROTTING barn siding. And check out the price for this (it's not much bigger than my apartment) check it out

I went out to see this one I actually really like it, especially that fireplace (kitchen sucks) but while it's in a place that's normally good and full of nearly 500$K homes, it's up a high with a dirt driveway overlooking a house with a rusted tin roof, a deralict trailer and a shitbox house with a half dozen dead cars and across from a fundie church. Sobs.

My parents still want me to buy this beauty It's so crowded over there that I'm fairly sure I would be unhappy and this is where the foundry is, making air quality bad, not every day but it does. There's a reason this house has dropped 40K in about 6 months. I would love this house if it were ANY where else but here...as I told ELD last night, I'd be afraid that factory would give me COPD.

But I'm considering it. I could walk to Arch and Eddies and the brewery....

And to top off the shittiness of the last two days, I paper cut the webbing between my index and middle finger and Kanda snagged my new bedspread.

And I've dug out my Buffy and Angel dvds. Someone stop me. Also joined a new BtVS lj comm.

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Ghost Adventures

My pretty little silver Civic, Naru is gone. Today I traded him on a new to me Honda CRV. Dad went with me. I couldn't keep squatting down to get in and out of the Civic. Too bad because the new hatchback was sexy and sporty. THe CRV is a small SUV.

I didn't want a red one (I park outside) but this was a 2015 with only 18,000 miles on sale for 20K (knocked down another 3300 by Naru's trade in). Still my monthly payment is scary to me. So very scary.

I wouldn't worry if I didn't have these loans but this plus rent plus loans = me worried sick about everything

I'm trying name him. SInce he's red (technically a weird burgundy) I've narrowed it to a few red headed anime/manga guys (also Jeopardy!'s tournament had a manga category)

Ichigo was first to mind followed by Renji (Both from Bleach), Lavi (D. Grayman), Gojyo (Saiyuki), Shouto (My Hero Academia) and Grell.. That said Grell's scary and Gojyo makes bad choices....

ETA - I just found this house not far from my parents (about 20 minutes). Go thru it til you find the staircase, don't worry you'll know the one I mean. I WANT this house It’s beautiful

Current Mood: worried
Current Music: Monster of the AByss

It started at 7 AM when the neighbor who shot the fox called to tells us my uncle screamed at him to call us because the ambulance was there to take my aunt to the hospital. She has artificial heart valves and a pacemaker so we all thought she had a heart attack or a stroke especially since she couldn't see (cortical blindness can happen with super high blood pressure which we assumed she had because of how worked up she was about the fox). Hours later we learned that it was actually some sort of infection (that she was no doubt ignoring).

Meanwhile the neighbor who started the whole thing with the fox called in tears because she felt guilty about upsetting my aunt so much (because again we thought it was a heart attack or stroke) and she called the cops herself because the kit was back (turned out it was the mom that was shot) but it was staggering around. One kit died last week so maybe it IS rabid after all. At least this time they had sense enough not to shoot it themselves.

I got caught in a massive storm in Marietta on my way home. the road was flooded out (and this was the high road) and then my fucking windshield wiper broke. My brand new one. OMG WHY? I had to keep stopping and pushing the rubber back into place. I get home to find out from a neighbor someone tried to break into my back door and was arrested on a different charge

So that leads me to house hunting. To my shock my dad calls me into the computer room this morning to excitedly show me this house Now I've been eyeing it. If I decide to live in-town this house is an excellent option. I didn't realize it was built in 1833 until he told me (I didn't look) and I was shocked he was excited by that since old houses have issues (He was so excited he looked it up to learn more about Jackson. Only 136 people lived in the town then). I wouldn't mind this house at all. He's already picking out color schemes to paint it and the fence to match.

Then there's this house which I've been eyeing for more than a year but it never had a damn inside picture. I love the location. Now there's pictures. Is it me or does it look like a country western bar inside?

But there was good news. I do NOT have chronic lyme's disease nor hep A. I go for the gallbladder/liver scan tomorrow.

And here's the dress I plan to buy. Yes it's expensive (sort of) but it's something I can wear other places. It's not quite flapper (but I can always put fringe around the bottom). I've wanted it for at least three years so...

ETA - so I don't forget on the Christmas story, Tony can't afford much so his gift will be to make a week's worth of meals. Javier will buy tickets to go play in Diagon Alley.

Current Mood: aggravated
Current Music: Elementary

They canceled Lucifer (and a few other fan favorites) today. They've already uncanceled the Tim Allen comedy I never even heard of. Netflix was asking should it pick up Brooklyn 99. I never cared for that but I did answer their tweet with a pick up Lucifer.

Fuck.

I did get a laugh out of Trulia today when it sent me a three million dollar home as part of my 'search parameters' (maybe Trulia is psychic and I'm going to win the megamillions)

I still didn't get nearly as much cleaned as I wanted because sugar + depression had me on the couch weepy all after noon.

The bank didn't help one bit. I got a letter from them saying they were canceling my loan. I'm like what loan? The only things I could think of was they mean my overdraft protection or someone identity theft me It was the former and it turns out all this time, 13 years it's been appearing on my credit report as a LOAN when all they had to do was use my savings account as overdraft protection. Yeah bite me too Wesbanco.

I missed Nerd Prom. Tomorrow is Rathacon and they really changed it up this year. It's only one day (which is far more appropriate for how small it is) but tonight was the prom. I was already too busy trying to get out of here on sunday that I knew I couldn't go. I did see a lot of guys lamenting they had no date to the prom so it might have been a fun night for me. Sigh.

Current Mood: distressed
Current Music: The Simspsons

I did weed my garden to death though. I was out there an hour and managed to bruise my palm (overdoing it with the pruning shears. I can't feel that hand) I still have more to do out there but that might be all that gets done this week.

I had to go to the doctor and the dmv (just to get my tags for the car). She's not sure what is wrong with me but agrees, the only thing is can be is something in the intestine, the liver or my gallbladder (which looks normal on testing but I know isn't working right because I get sick with anything buttery or fried).

She was also concerned that I cough when I do deep breaths in. So I'm scheduled for an ultra sound, had a chest x-ray again, and they took three vials of blood (from my upper arm because no veins wanted to play nice from the elbow down) and are testing for hepatitis and chronic lyme's. She was pretty shocked at how fast my skin and body have reacted to it being warmer. I'm already a mess.

I had another bout of exhaustion so not much got done until it passed (three hours seems to be the sweet spot for this).

I found a house. It's a perfect house if you ignore the neighbors are less than 9 feet away. It’s beautiful It's 50 damn miles from work. SOB.

I want this house. It's got a slate roof. It's got an elevator! ELD is already planning to move in.

Still having bad dreams

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Krypton

It really gets ahold of you. Of course, it doesn't help that I'm wrong. I'm ALWAYS wrong. I'm wrong about everything, just ask the men in my family. I was not at all pleased today to find out my Dad and my brother have been talking about what house I should buy and how everything I want is wrong.

Mom's like they're trying to help in their way, to give me their experiences at homeowning. Yeah I'd buy that more if Dad didn't always work so hard to prove I'm wrong about literally anything I say that HE doesn't agree with.

I need a 'nice little house in town.' You know what maybe I can't handle a big yard. Maybe it'll be a mistake. Maybe so but it's my mistake. I am SO tempted to but in town (happy now) and that large house (so fuck you).

Please quite racing to tell me how wrong I am. Hell stop yelling at Mom because I WANT a house. Maybe I'll just buy one of those double wides for sale. Happy now? It's small and shitty. Just what I should have because I can't handle anything else.

What's worse is everything I like is way over priced. I see what says 'home' to me but the price tag says 'you have to be delusional' I love the ones who haven't sold in half a year and then RAISE their price. (I think they;re doing it so when someone comes in low they'll get what they originally wanted)

Also the depression insured I forgot to pay a few bills so of course now I feel even worse. Sigh.

Current Mood: bitchy
Current Music: Timeless

Work is still a shit storm but it was the morning that was rough. I was awoken at 730 by the doctor's office to tell me my 1130 apt was canceled (her kid was sick) which was okay but then I got three more calls before 830 including one for the original owner of my number who for 13 years has been using this number as a contact # for places she plans to never pay and I get all the collection calls.

My edits are still murdering me but what I wanted to share was the house we found. Right price. BEAUTIFUL inside...in an area of town so tightly packed I could have less privacy there than I do now. SIgh. I live in the middle of nowhere. DO I give up my chances for a yard and a garden and deer etc for something so in town it hurts. On the other hand, the house is adorable. check it out here Sigh.

It gets worse, just a few blocks away is another absolutely gorgeous house packed in like sardines check it out here

Then there's this one that's out of my price range in Albany that I want just for that shelter cave. Though dudes, I KNOW it's Ohio but you can't vent the damn wood burning stove INTO your own eaves. check it out here

I do sort of love this one outside of the price but it's a bit far to the west, even further from most of my non-work friends. check it out here

And lastly we ALL loved this house but couldn't figure out why it was relatively inexpensive until we Google Earthed it. My SHARED driveway is over a quarter of a mile and DIRT. I don't have the ability to plow that. I don't have a vehicle that wouldn't care I can't plow it. I might go look at this house anyhow and see how the people living there now get around check it out here

Current Mood: depressed

I have three favorites right now but all three are more than I can comfortably pay. Here's the thing. I COULD go for a cheap house but we all know why they're cheap. You start paying under 80K and you're buying substandard wiring, a roof about to die, plumbing nightmares, carpets that need replaced etc etc. I mean you DO get what you pay for. I do not want to end up with a money pit I can't fix.

But I'm having a tough time finding something in between unless I want right in the city with neighbors practically touching me.

My favorite but this is the furthest from my comfort zone. It's been lowered in price. I'm hoping it will go lower yet. I love the outside of this.

this one is just fun It's a touch further west than I want to be and a bit too expensive for something that has a garage that needs to be set on fire.

Dad found this one It's outside of Athens and in reality only 10 miles further than the other two from work BUT it is down a narrow Amish-ridden stretch of sadness so it's a LONG 35 miles. It's not much to look at on the outside but the inside is very nice.

I can't seem to clean my own space. I walk inside and die. Nothing is cleaned, I have less than a week to get it done now. Sigh.

I hurt my toe again. I had it on the lip of the tub gently drying it and it slipped off, bending it up. ouch.

Current Mood: discontent
Current Music: The Simspsons

But first happy birthday to

dragonydreams! Hope it was a nice one.

And my mental health wasn't up to doing the writerly ways post I wanted to do. Maybe tomorrow. I was so stressed out today that I forgot to turn on one of the wash machines (put the coins in, walked away with them just sitting there) so it took twice as long. In theory the new land lords will be here tomorrow morning (WTF? THis is NOT HUD housing with people on welfare, most of us are gone at work all day) and in theory the rent is going up 100$. Now here's the problem. It's ILLEGAL to raise rent without a month's notice in Ohio. I want to point that out but I also don't want to start off on the wrong foot especially as much of a mess as I have going on in here. Sigh.
So I'm basically paying 700$/month now. I can get a decent house for that.

Dad wants me to buy this I think maybe he's had a stroke. This is the man who didn't want me to move 20 miles away and is showing me one 56 miles away. It IS too far, even if it IS a straight shot. On one hand, he's right, this is a beautiful place (and so cheap, I think it must be haunted or polluted by the paper mill or over a Native American mound or some shit) and it's in a complex where the group mows the lawn and fixes the outside etc. On the other hand, it's just like living in an apartment complex only more upscale...with a pool and gym).

Honestly if this was in Athens, I might not even argue. I'd just buy it. I know he's worried I can't fix up the outside of a house and will be ripped off by contractors (probably true) and that I can't do the lawn work...also possibly true. I DO worry about that. Maybe it'll be good for me to get out there and do it. Maybe it'll be a huge ass mistake but I can't know until I try.

Both he and Mom agree the house I found is the absolute PERFECT HOUSE for me. Sadly it TOO is 55 miles away from work. Whines.

Here's Dad's thoughts on the matter: It has your name written all over it from the gargoyles out front to the lace curtains in the parlor to the black ceiling in the upstairs bedroom.

It screams Dana!!!!

I see why it’s priced so low, a large flooding creek behind, railroad tracks out front and squeezed between houses on a back street. They put a lot of money into this house with the remodeling inside and outside. What a Halloween house this would make.

He added on the phone that I would never remodel this place because it's perfect for me and that someone HAS put a shit ton of money into updating it. You know, if not for the train track I might consider it and suck up that drive. But that's an active track (it's the one my steampunk train ride goes by) and I couldn't handle that.

It's October Third and I didn't write an FMA story. I feel bad but I do have these OMG wonderful (and expensive) new figures.

Al OMG he has KITTENS inside him!!

Ed

Roy

And RIP Tom Petty. You'll be missed.

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