cornerofmadness

So my urban fantasy m/m novel comes out tomorrow. Really did you think I'd talk about anything else on this writerly ways? I'm thrilled, worried, vaguely nauseous and more than anything else, this pic floating around Facebook sums it up.



Oh yes. Well that's me about anything really but this is more true about this book.

The writer's armor. We have to have our armor to protect us because we know things will happen that we just aren't going to like. I like to pretend mine is shiny plate-mail with beautiful embellishments. Nothing is going to get me!

As the hours tick down, I have to face the truth. My plate mail isn't even chain mail, or boiled leather. It's rusty. It's full of holes exposing my tender bits.

That said, I'm not delusional. I know I'm NOT going to please everyone. I'm not going to whine because OMG someone gave me 3 stars instead of 4 or 5. I'm not going to wail and flail on the authors' lists over this. I'm not even going to be that upset if someone gives me a bad rating because Rhys is bi and is *gasp* married with children. That idea is very different for the elves who are polygamous by their long-lived nature and it is dealt with in the novel but I DO know this will be a stumbling block for some. I expect that.

What WILL get me, that I will be lying on my side whimpering to you are the people who'll pop by Goodreads and Amazon especially and go 'ugh, I hate urban fantasy.' (then why the hell did you buy it? It's clearly marked). 'This is unrealistic.' (about Aaron's arm, his PTSD, elves? you name it). 'This is filled with grammar issues.' (OMG I'm not sure where some people have learned it but I've read the books in question and most are just fine. This one went through three first readers AND three editors I'm pretty sure it's clean.) Or the trolls who just go around and rate things down because of content or they dislike an author (well I shouldn't have much issue with that yet). This kind of unfairness will bother me. And it's already happened to me so i know it's NOT just made up stuff in my head. I'm sure it will happen again.

Okay any of it will bother me but I can accept honest criticism or that not everyone will love Aaron and Rhys as much as I do. I know I shouldn't look at the reviews on amazon and goodreads and concentrate on professional reviewers but it's hard not to. I KNOW there are issues because GR and Amazon are scrambling to come up with rules and punishments for all the trolling and bullying going on (death threats to Charlaine Harris anyone?)

I will tell myself that I won't obsess over this but you know I will. I've already been to GR and looked at the first few profiles of people putting it on their TBR pile. Points to the picture. Yeah reading one of them tells me absolutely this reader will hate this book. Am I inventing nonsense to worry over? OF COURSE. This is me after all.

Wish me luck.

Oh and here's Dreampinner’s blog for anyone who wants to come to the release party and ask me questions and get a chance to win the book!

yearly word count -

Project Fierce - editing, almost done

If Two of Them are Dead - awaiting edits from DSP

Splinters & Soldiers - didn't touch. I needed to do all the promo work for the novel and to get Project Fierce done.