cornerofmadness

#7 Something I learned this week, that I am not nearly as marketable as I thought I was. Today we interviewed two of the four candidates we plan on interviewing. It feels weird to feel like I'm in control of their futures. But my god, they are literally so overqualified for this job it's pathetic. The ONLY thing that sells our school is that they're both from small town OH and want to return to same (one even routinely vacationed here in the Hocking HIlls.) I feel like an uneducated yokel by comparison. I know this isn't true but NOT being trained in research makes me less desirable as a professor.

I also learned that I don't take my own advice much. I had said something a few weeks back to evil_little_dog about letting go and accepting where we are now even if we don't really want to be there. I believe that's true but I realized that I haven't done that much myself. I tried this past year when I made plans to play tourist in my own area but didn't do it. Even if I don't write this contemporary novel with ghosts (I haven't written in days), I'm learning just how beautiful the Hocking HIlls are. I'm letting go of some of my despair over being here for a fucking decade and am trying to learn to find things to like here.

It is not easy.

I'm skipping #13 for now. #14 what do I hope to be doing this time next year? As much as I'd love to say a new job I know that isn't going to happen. I'd like to have seen a new state or country by then or both. I want to be celebrating the sell of another novel. I want to have another 2 novels finished. I would like to be less than I am now weight wise. I'd like to own my own house even though I suspect that will be a mistake.