cornerofmadness

and my brother. All three of us agree, I somehow irritated the long head of the biceps (it's stationary at the shoulder). this is the one I had to have cut from my shoulder and moved on the left. I wish I could relax a little but since I have to pack the car and move back to OH tomorrow. That is going to hurt and I don't want to aggravate this but what choice is there? J. taped me up. Otherwise, the surgeon is happy with my progress.

Went to see grandma for one last time. She was in a good mood today though they had the damn heater on in there. It was 85 today.

Stopped at the really cool greenhouse to get some fairy gardenstuff. And this is where I go crazy. It's all overpriced but since i made a special trip I felt compelled to buy one thing.

I'm so not ready to go back. I know that I can't bitch about being off so long. Most people would kill for the time off I get but it is very hard to be off for months. You get so off your schedule. You forget things (like my damn log ins). You get used to being off. It's so hard to get back into it.

And having to go back to that place. I don't like being there. I've been there nearly 9 years, longer than I've been anywhere and I've hated every moment of it. I just looked at the jobs again. I can count them on ONE hand across the entire country. I regret every part of the choices I made after being injured but I have to live with them. It's not like I decided to quit a good job and move across the country but it's what I'm stuck with.

Kanda isn't going to be happy either. He's gotten used to having a nice big house to run in.

One kick from a patient and nothing's been right in my life since.

And sadly the two jobs I found tonight one was in a part of WI I don't really want to go to and the other is in St. Kitts. My brother will die because I'm not even bothering. I have no use for the caribbean.