cornerofmadness

The micro for nursing test went well. The dean's end of year lunch as fine. My coworkers are getting a pass but barely. The state is making us do updates to A&P. I'm in charge of this and the other female prof has been there doesn't much care, just tell her what to do. the two men aren't into being told what they HAVE to include. I'm calling a meeting. I tell them today won't work as I'll be out. I get to work and see the two men going we're meeting at 3 today.

No, we are NOT. What part of I can't be there...so I get a 'well can't you be there at 4 I'm busy.' Like I'm not? No I'm going to be in the hospital for hours. We're meeting on thursday at 330 after ALL finals are over. Neither man has replied to me. Well suck it up buttercup because I'm in charge. I'm the one who has to go to all these extra meetings about this stuff and I have seniority over everyone but my fellow lady prof.

As for the appointment...it didn't go well. Worse than I expected. Actually my sugar isn't that bad. we looked at a 3 month glucose monitor readout and doc asks, look here, from 930 your sugar sky rockets and stays high until after 4 pm. What are you doing then? I look at her and she's like palm slap to the head. 'You're at work.' YES 'Well obviously your body doesn't like being there. Are you eating lunch?' Yes. Take another 10 units of insulin with breakfast, babe. sigh.

However my insurance is paying for montjaro (that is not how that's spelled...) which is like Ozempic but has a different med mixed in. Say a prayer for me because Ozempic/Trulicity/Byetta/others in this class, always make me sick. I have gastric paresis and a bad gallbladder and this can make it worse but my sugar is STILL around 200 all day in spite of three other diabetic meds and two insulins.

Also you can't do SOLID sugar rescues like peanut butter with this med if you have a low. You need juice or pop. 'I'll drink maple syrup (like my brother's diabetic cat)' She eyes me. 'What? I don't drink pop. Juice is expensive and I don't want it to go bad waiting on me needing it. BUT I do occasionally eat pancakes and maple syrup (yes I know, bad Dana) so if I go low I'll drink the syrup. But she opened the day with I DID NOT KNOW ABOUT YOUR THYROID. In spite of me begging them to tell her. Why did your ob/gyn order a thyroid scan? She didn't. My PCP did but Holzer sent it to my ob/gyn by mistake. My endo stares at me and says HOW? Come on, you work here. You know it's pathetic. Then she looked at the scan with me and it turns out the pathetic report I had WAS the only one. There's no info on if its hypoechoic or hyperechoic (which would tells us if it's a cyst or a solid) It doesn't say WHERE the three nodules are in my right thyroid lobe, just that they're there and they're ALL over the size that should have been biopsied but the radiologist didn't say that so the other doc looking at this doesn't know that. And of course I'm leaving so I can't go get it redone (and she said yes our radiology department is the pits)

I swear to fuck if this is cancer I'm looking into suing this place because they never sent the report to the right people and didn't even DO it right to begin with. It is compressive so she said there's almost no chance my thyroid is staying in my neck to the end of the year. The right lobe will have to go, cancer or not. I'll need to be on thyroid meds. We almost started them now but again I'm starting two new meds this week.

She's also concerned about the fact that I still have a serious microcytic hypochromic anemia (i.e. tiny red blood cells that don't hold much hemoglobin) I can't exercise hard enough to lose weight because I have so little functioning red blood cells my nails are warped, my gums are pale, I'm so tired.

Yeah I'm so tired, yinz. I just can't with this any more.

But still I go on because I need to. I don't quit easily.